I want out of this abyss,
Straight and fast,
I want no pain no more-
Just straight and fast.
Out of this labyrinth
Cause I can’t fake it-
Cause I can’t take it.
I don’t believe in what-
e.e cummings did,
Nor will I ever.
Just believe in Simon Bolivar;
Straight and fast.
That’s all I want now.
Smoking cigarettes on balconies-
With that person whom I love.
No it’s not just love;
It’s excruciating love.
He runs his hand through my hair,
Tells me it’d be okay.
I laugh cause I just know,
That it was not going to be
Of course there was no pain,
In knowing what wasn’t going to be.
Okay?
Okay.
No, I get it.
It’s the fault in my stars.
Will I ever get out of this suffering?
I don’t think I ever will.
Just because I’m Alaska Young?
Is that why there’s so much suffering?
Miles Halter makes everything so easy,
Straight and fast.
Yeah,straight and fast.
Sipping straight on strawberry whiskey-
My head resting on his shoulder,
The truth untold got told.
And all he did was stare.
Norms are getting really under me;
As if it even matters anymore.
I opened his door and all I did was cry,
To be continued, I had said.
Until white daisies bid me goodbye.
How could I ever forget?
What I had done?
No, I just couldn’t.
I’ll remember you, I told him;
Nevertheless what happens.
I drove and I drove-
Until I saw flashing lights
I remembered to swerve,
But I just didn’t.
Cause there was only one thing in my mind;
Straight and fast.
This is how I end, I thought.
No one will ever remember me,
Straight and fast.
But Miles? What about him?
What about the thing that was to be continued?
I don’t get what to do,
Just want to exit this labyrinth.
Straight and fast.
As I crashed to floor,
Blood pooling around me;
Zero point two four in my blood,
Blood-stained daisies-
My life before my eyes.
All I could see was him;
Crying at my gravestone.
But I had done it.
Straight and fast.
It’s finally over, I told myself.
The suffering’s over.
It’s done. It’s done.
I’m sorry Miles, I’m terribly sorry.
As she lay on the highway,
Just another dead human.
Out of this labyrinth.
Straight and fast.
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